in summer
we jump in pools
we scream
we relax
in autumn
we get to work
we cuddle
we dream
in winter
we clean up
we prepare
we love
in spring
we invest in life
we imagine
we sing

unable to think
pleasantly

my body aches
subtle and dull
I want my lover
to rest my cheek
on her chest
to feel her warmth

people
love
success
stories
sex
money
cuddles
handiwork

there’s hope!
wait, nope.

wind whipping
noise like water
waves in her ears
loose bits of hair
in front of her eyes
in the corners of her mouth
high up
she’s exhilarated
not a death wish
she’s alive now

tinny metal clinks
a silvery flash
large bay window
outside greenery
a stuffed rabbit
a stuffed cat
quiet peace
a life imagined
future ghosts
walk through
this big house