you can’t just pull on your bootstraps
and hope to float
when you’re drowning
Poetry
I’m working on writing a thousand poems. I started in April 2015.
Poem #788 – heatwave
kittens melted into the carpet
crayons in the hundred degree heat.
when the sun set,
they couldn’t pull their little paws free.
Poem #787
yet again.
I check my bank account,
and I’m not a millionaire.
Poem #786
I used to take pictures of the sky
that says something about me
now I take pictures of dirt
I suppose that says something too
Poem #785 – you can’t lie in the vacuum of space
when I arrived in space,
I liquified
I guess it was just atmospheric pressure
keeping me together
Poem #784
busy, busy.
I’m busy
trying not to think
trying not to let the wall of water
at the edge of my eyes
drown me
Poem #783 – there is no point in catching butterflies if your only reason is they’re pretty
justifying my choices to you is
catching butterflies on a windy day.
and if I did catch one,
I’d release it immediately anyway
Poem #782 – logic is not kind
you are right
but you are not right
the best way
to grow this tree
is the right soil,
the right sun,
the right rain.
but it will still grow
with another soil,
another sun,
another rain.
your tree grows twenty feet tall
so does mine
your tree is an emerald of the forest
mine is titanite in the Sahara
your tree is home to squirrels and birds
mine is a small oasis in the desert
your tree is not better than mine
after all is said and done
Poem #781b – the three me’s
the normal one
you see her the most
she’s got her shit together
she goes to work every day
she invests
she smiles when she should
she impresses your mom
she thinks the right thing
she says the right thing
she does the right thing
the depressed one
you hear of her occasionally
she sleeps right after work
she stares at her phone for hours
she cries
she doesn’t even feel like trying
she refuses your invitations
she can’t clean
she can’t survive without help
she hangs on for the other two
the manic one
you think you like this one
she laughs really loud
she is bigger than any room
she lives
she teeters on the edge
she gets on your nerves
she pushes buttons
she thinks the big thing
she says the wrong thing
she flirts with disappearing
Poem #781a – appraisal
my value is not derived
from the small nose or small ears
that I got from my mom
or from the mostly straight teeth
that I got from my dad
or from the thin arms and waist
that I worked for myself
my value is derived
from the words I put together here
and from the perspective I bring
and from the mere fact of my existence