if I could hop aboard your alien craft
right now
I would
the stars call me
into a euphoria of hysteria
I would leave, I would
I would
not a second thought
of the left behind
push past the atmosphere
and race out of their system
never has my brain felt so light
as it is in a vacuum
write the stars on my body
like they are written on my mind
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when I arrived in space,
I liquified
I guess it was just atmospheric pressure
keeping me together
when they initiated the launch sequence,
I couldn’t move
the metal scaffolding caged me
I spat out steam
when my body contained enough rage,
it rattled the cage.
I left the ground behind,
burned away all the excess fuel
and dropped the external tanks
I made it to space
much lighter than when I started
but the core of me withstood the journey
the little sapling has hopes
she grows and grows and grows
before she knows it,
that little sapling,
she’s holding the whole world up
the stars drape over her
a glittering big top
a company of performers underneath
dancing and flipping and belting out
before she knows it,
that company of performers,
they’ve taken down the star canvas
they’ve got another world to entertain
but she remains
a big, strong tree without stars to hold up
waiting and crying and waiting
giant machines walked above us
but they weren’t our lords
we controlled them with tiny devices
determined to reach the stars
we thought we were big
until they fell on us
unplug from my body
float farther and farther away
just one air hose keeping me attached
it’s bliss
and loneliness
blue melts out of my skin
a galaxy flowing away
I am sad
blue puddles around my feet
no longer inside me
I should be happy
nothing expands
swallowing cities and stars
accepting progress
spitting out more nothing
out in space
sitting on an asteroid
my ankles are crossed
no more air to breathe
ten million light years away
no chance of return
thank you for trying
